“The treatment is not working.”

Even though I had already sensed I would be hearing these words, actually hearing them come out of your doctor’s mouth hits different.

Suddenly the last 8 years of battling with this disease flashed before my eyes.

Instead of feeling fear, I felt overcome with gratitude.

I remembered the first time I heard I had cancer 8 years ago.

I went back to the moment where I was told I had only months to live.

Yet 8 years later, here I still am.

Despite all diagnosis that has been spoken over me, God still has me here.

G r a t e f u l n e s s

That’s all I felt.

When just a few weeks ago, I thought was the end, God said not yet.

And I know that I know that I know if God can get me through these past four months, like He has the last 8 years, I can overcome anything.

To say that this year has been the most difficult health wise, would be an understatement.

Whenever the pain would become unbearable, I would think of the cross and how much pain Jesus felt.

I know that my pain would never compare to his and what He had to endure for me and for you.

The only reason I remain standing and have overcome everything I’ve had to, is become God has been with me every step of the way.

I’ve learned throughout these past few weeks that truly, if I have Him, I have everything I need.

God has truly been my source of strength and resilience and without it, I wouldn’t be here today.

Now I won’t go into details, because the details don’t really matter at this point.

I just wanted to let you know that the treatment has had to be changed in hopes of a better outcome.

As always, my faith remains in God – not the doctors or the medication.

Knowing that it’s been Him and Him alone that’s kept me this far.

So I hope you keep believing with me, knowing that there is nothing impossible for my God.

This news will only make God’s glory greater.

All this to say, that truly, no matter what you may be facing, as long as you have Him you have already won – even if you feel like you’ve already lost it all.

Keep fighting the good fight.

God is not done with you.